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[04 May 2005|09:28pm]

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[21 Sep 2004|03:44pm]

be cool and add __ohexclamation to your friends list. Its the new lj. thank you


[14 Sep 2004|09:35pm]

hoekayCollapse )


[09 Sep 2004|09:45pm]

i promised these about...5 entries ago?Collapse )


[05 Sep 2004|12:21pm]

I watched a lady hit her kid in the church parking lot. And one tell another kid to shut the hell up.


[02 Sep 2004|03:23pm]

 I'm trying to make it a point to not talk about school when im not in it. So here i go, not talking about it. or trying not to.

i cant wait till Halloween. and Christmas!! Ah, gosh. christmas. cant wait...dont know why exactly, though.

hm, guess i havent anything to say. comment and enlighten me with something. thank you



[25 Aug 2004|07:56pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

When i think of sometihng, it reminds me of a specific thing, or day. Like when i think of winter, i think of The Grinch Who Stole Christmas. because justin and i watched that on christmas break, and it just stuck. so here are the senses of last summer. i would do the senses of this summer, but i dont really know what they are yet. but ill do some predictions?

LAST SUMMER (since its the most recent..um...just be in my brain to understand.)

TASTES: starbucks, oatmeal cookies, pizza, guacamole dorritos, quesidillas, mt. dew.

SMELLS: dream perfume from Gap, CK perfume, -all the tastes' smell's up there-, burning cookies,  kelly's house smell, rain.

SIGHTS: now and then, the scenery on the way to starbucks, betsys house, kelly's house, stand by me, food dear God food, AIM, dashboard confessional CD makeup, american eagle pants, receipts, caustion tape, toilet paper, different color beads and three clear ones, barbies, rain,

SOUNDS: the places you have come to fear the most, change, laughing, crying, chalk on the ground, chomping, peeing on grass from being scared, the cat? kelly's laugh, oldies, starbucks ice crushing ness, rain

TOUCH: grass, furry cats, sleeping bags.


TASTES: fibars, smoothies, popsicles, popsicles, popsicles, peanut butter, pretzals, pizza with smiley faces.

SMELLS: -all the smell's that go along with the tastes up there-,  vanilla, adidas perfume, bria's house smell, kelly's house smell, pool smell, cucumber, hairdye.

SIGHTS: grassy knolls and graveyards, fish, the pool, hottubs, bria's, movies movies movies, walgreens, burger king, chillis, the movies, kelly's, volleyballs, nicole's, justin's dog charlie, straightner, money that i was afraid to spend, pictures, broken cameras, rain, paper, boxes, rain, coldness, dude wheres my car, phones.

SOUNDS: splashing...i cant really recall any sounds. laughing, crying.

TOUCH: coldness, fish, hair and its dye.

thats all i can think of right now. maybe next summer ill redo this summer. who knows...Good luck with that God Forsaken school everyone. welcome to the next step of your life, as adults like to say.



p.s. did your summer go by as fast as mine?


[22 Aug 2004|02:51pm]

So this is when i decided my camera was a scrodum.Collapse )


[20 Aug 2004|03:59pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I should have pictures for you soon. Go on like summer will never end.



oohhh sheeit. here it goes. [16 Aug 2004|10:44pm]
[ mood | numb ]

IF you were to be granted one wish, what would it be?

IF you could eliminate any one type of insect permanently from the earth, what would you get rid of?

IF you could have stopped aging at any point inyour life up to the present, how old would you want to remain?

IF you could return for one year to one age inyour life, knowing what you know now, to relive that year as you wish, which year would yougo back to?

IF you could say one sentence to the current Pope, what would it be?

IF you could have chosen your own first name, other than your current one, what would it be?

IF you were to lose one of your five senses, which would you give up?

IF you had to name the most terrifying moment of your life so far, what would it be?

IF you could change one of your personality trails, what would it be?

IF you could choose the way you will die, how would it be?

...from the book "IF...questions for the game of life." comment and answer some, or all.



[06 Aug 2004|10:38pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

i would like to go what middle school was like to me. not really as much as what it was like, but what happened. and how stupid it is.


when i started sixth grade i had no friends. then first period with mrs. conrad was reading, and the first day she told us to get into partners. i asked betsy hercher to be my partner, and declaired her my first friend. i still dont know if she really liked me then, but oh well. i look back at sixth grade and want to shoot myself. it was all really stupid. i was good friends with tricia warkenthein, erin polley, and paige stone. i used to sit at a lunch table with suzanne young and brittney samulson and sarah bencomo, and sarah always used to blow her nose during lunch. i asked her why she did that one time and simply replied "phlem". that summer going into seventh i hung out with betsy twice. and then hannah cresto a few times. i liked to stick to my cousin and jill.


by seventh grade, things were still kinda really downsyndrome. i was best friends with hannah cresto. to tell you the truth, i dont really remember it all that well. i had the best teacher in the world, ms. whittington. i miss that old lady. towards the end i started making really good friends. betsy, erin, abby. i remember thinking i was cool because i was going into 8th grade. i thought it was funny to be really loud with hannah. yeah, i look back and want to shoot myself again. i remember hearing about the 8th grade food fight and thought it was really cool, and couldnt wait for ours. that summer going into eighth grade was the best summer.


              THING.color= pink

i remember the first day going into 8th grade, and betsy wouldnt even go in the front door. how about that? alot of people were really excited, but i wasnt really. i didnt really want to go. the first day i thought i was on 8-1. then 8-3. then 8-3 was my team for about an hour, until i found out i was on 8-1 officially. the new school sniffed crack. and mr Glkasfafjkoktinalskdf was kind of weird. i made lots of new friends. and the lunch table was the most confusing thing. i found out that its ok if everyone doesnt like you. you'll live. stick to a few close friends if you want, and you'll be good. i remember being scared to walk alone in the halls, and justin would always walk me to all of my classes. i remember i cried at school. i had only done that once before. bria was there during gym and said it was ok. i love that girl. i found myself forgteting things that i didnt think i would forget. things i never really thought about forgetting. things from 6th grade, 7th grade. its only a year or two ago, so why was i forgetting it? i guess you have to forget some of the memories to fit in the new good ones. and the new bad ones. alot of crap happened that just happened. everything is good now, though.  the summer going into 9th grade is going really well. VERY well. i love you all!

thats not really what i wanted it to be. when i figure it out, ill do another good one. i dont know what im looking for right now.



[02 Aug 2004|03:25pm]
[ mood | bored ]

my fish died. the big one. kelly and i had a funeral and then swam in her pool in memory of him. he has a rock where he lays at the graveyard under the first tree to your right, if anyone cares to go and visit him. he was a good fish.

anyways. there is nothing to do in my house other than watch tv, go on the computer, or water plants. if i used my imagination i could think up lots of other stuff, but im so trapped with boredom, that i cant.

i went to kellys last night, and we had fun. we didnt die her hair this time, unfortunatly. and we talked and kicked it the whole time.

right now, for the most of it, i love you all.



[29 Jul 2004|03:15pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

i was thinking about this. i have been for awhile. but i had a few good conversations on it. what if all the life plans together that friends concoct up in their minds all came true?

alot of us will be bestfriends throughout highschool and go to the same college and live in the same apartment. you'll meet sexy twin boys and get married.

the wedding will be great. you'll be eachothers maid of honors, and have your honeymoon at the same time. different hotels.

you'll become rich for no appearent reason and have beachfront property and live next door to eachother for the rest of your lives. you'll have kids at the same time and they will all be best friends. one of your girls will marry of of their boys. it'll be even a better wedding then ours. -haha, but close-

when you grow old, the men will play golf while you guys go shopping because you arent going to be the old biege-color-always-wearing-nurse shoes-unstylish old ladies. no way. you'll die on the same day together.

what if all that happened? all the plans you make with your best friends? all the ideas you have stored up in your mind as your perfect life acted upon itsself and became true. mine are going to. no doubt...



[24 Jul 2004|12:39am]
[ mood | peaceful ]

A few miracles have happened in the past two days. pretty exciting.

I was at my dad's for a week, and i was supposed to be there for a day. but then my brother's mom called saying that his uncle was on his death bed, and that nick needed to come home pronto. so then i just went home when nick did. so ta-da. im home. maybe ill type it all out so i can understand it, and help others, if they are confused and/or care.

THE START. my mom and dad had a little bit of the birds and bees. then i was the outcome. then he split.

MY DADS SIDE OF THE STORY. after my dad left, he met a woman named heather. she was a huge bitch that called me a fucking bitch when i was four. she works for the church. go figure. they also had a talk about the birds and the bees. on december fifth, 1995, Nick was born. my half brother. then my dad split. then, in 1996-'97, my dad met lindsey. she is 7 years younger than my dad. which was kind of alot because she was 19 and he was 26. kinda weird...henyways. in april of '98, they got married. then in april of 2002 lindsey had her first baby, spencer. my half brother. then in march of this year, she had lilli, my half sister.

MY MOMS SIDE OF THE STORY. after my dad left, she took care of me kinda, with the help of other family. ya know the story. then in 1992, my mom got married to a man named gary. my new step dad. in 1997, they had marie, my half sister. in 2001, gary and my mom got a divorce. we  moved here the summer before sixth grade. my mom met lew at my aunts wedding and i gave him grief like no other. now hes my favorite. they got married in december of last year.

GARYS SIDE OF THE STORY. after the divorce, gary "met" a woman named chris. they got married in june of last year. chris is nice. she just recently had a baby named brooke, and shes so adorable. my new...shes nothing to me, but i think i'll consider her a sister.

Now dont get me wrong or anything when i say "half sister" or "half brother" im just clearing it up. i think of my brothers and sisters just as that. brothers and sisters. i wasnt too sad with the divorce my mom and gary went through, it was needed. sometimes breaking things up makes them better in ways. marie lives with me. nick lives with his mom, heather. spencer and lilli live with my dad. and brooke lives with gary. i think i had to set that straight with myself also. thanks guys.



[08 Jul 2004|10:47am]
[ mood | stressed ]

before our adventures and broken camerasCollapse )


[04 Jul 2004|12:46am]
[ mood | unimaginably loved ]

downtown naperville was a great time. bria and i went, and nicole was supposed to come, but she couldnt. so we get to downtown and went to einstein bagles. it was good. i had a muffin. and then latre (la-tray) it started raining..so we did a little jig in the rain and got a little damp. then we were walking and my camera fell out of this bag i was carrying. so now there's a hole in the bag. fuck. brias camera isnt in there, so then, of course, by the happenings of God, it starts pouring. so we're running to find her camera and we find it. in a puddle. so then we run all the way across downtown to where my mom was supposed to pick me up. thank virgin mary for cell phones. but, mine died bc it appearently also sat in a puddle. so i called my mom from bria's phone and she became on her way. then brias camera didnt work, and her cell phone was dying, and my camera was coughing at me. and my phone was dead. and all the crap i bought was soaking, not including bria and i could have rung out our bones. some nice people next to us asked if we had rides, then offered us one. oh well. so we had our own little line of electronics that were messed up perched up on a wall. oh well. have a great day everyone.


p.s. if someone would like to tell me how to put photos on here, please let me know. thank you, and goodnight.


[26 Jun 2004|12:10pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

i wanna be where the people are, i wanna see, wanna see 'em dancin.

things are going alright now-a-days.  Bria and i watched 7 movies in 2 days. it was kinda cool.

i went to kelly mcCormicks humble abode, and dyed her hair with bria pilkinton. we dyed it brown. it looked so happy. but then 12 hours later, we dyed it back. little sissy la-la. oh well, its her hair. i missed that kelly girl.

lots of things have happened in the time since i've updated last. i just cant really find one particular story to talk about. nothing that would mean something, anyone would care about reading. its all jumbled together.

so...i had my graduation party. there was a moon walk, and it was fun with my three other cousins. they are fun females. they all decided to leave at the same time, so i sat and talked to mr. chase carpenter since the rest of the guests wanted to get drunk. who knew? then i found a ten pound bag of peanuts. i started carrying it around for awhile until i found a place to sit. my uncle pete came and sat and ate the peanuts while i watched for my little cousin to not choke on them. he was being kind of confusing, bc hes never really talked to me before. he was telling me things that all adults repeat to kids our age. its their unwritten duty. but then he sort of swivelled off into some conversation i think he was having with himself. it was kinda weird...just for some more information for you guys.

hm....my mom decided that we're moving to bolingbrook. shes decided that about 9 different times, but this time is for actual. oh well. Have a weltastic day, according to the photo guy at walgreens.



[16 Jun 2004|04:31pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

I want to go to the art institute. But really i want to go to some huge art museum in France. or Italy....That would be pretty fun. That's all for today, other than I Love You.



[06 Jun 2004|02:22am]
[ mood | loved ]

So obviously its summer..the anticipation is over. So what to anticipate for now? High school? I guess we're supposed to anticipate that, it's next in line. You can anticipate anything, really. I can anticipate going to bed in a little while, the next song, the next word.

Friday was interesting...we could have had the whole downstairs with the team 8-1 and easily sneak away, but everyone came to the gay upstairs. Haha that's cool, though. A lot of people ask to sign your yearbooks when you haven't looked at them all year, let alone spoke to them. But what's another boost of confidence for "good luck next year" to another stranger? I wonder if i got everyone's? I tried to build up courage to do some things on that day, and one time it didnt work when it should have, and one time it did, when it definately shouldn't have. Oh, the spazms of my voice.

Graduation: haha. I am thouroghly convinced that our principal is partially retarded. And poor Mrs. B who's so short has to watch Mr. Grobablaksfjafaskfmalktin's hand inside of his pants. It was kinda huge though, graduation. A lot of little kids were really spaztic and running around at their older relative/friend's occasion. Why were they being spaziods? It wasnt for them, but maybe someone had to spaz...Because i dont think i saw one eighth grader.

Oh, the possibilities.



[02 Jun 2004|07:52pm]
[ mood | touched ]


There was an old lady who swallowed a fly. I dunno why she swallowed a fly. Perhaps she'll die. So then the old lady swallowed a spider that wiggled and jiggled and tickled inside her. She swallowed the spider to catch the fly. I dunno why she swallowed a fly. Perhaps she'll die. I knew an old lady who swallowed a bird. HOW ABSURD!..to swallow a bird. She swallowed a bird to catch the spider that wiggled and jiggled and tickled inside her. She swallowed the spider to catch the fly. I dunno why she swallowed a fly. Perhaps she'll die. I knew an old lady who swallowed a cat. HOW ABOUT THAT!...to swallow a cat. She swallowed the cat to catch the bird to eat the spider that wiggled and jiggled and tickled inside her. She swallowed a spider to catch the fly. I dunno why she swallowed a fly. Perhaps she'll die. I knew an old lady who swallowed a dog. SHE'LL LOOK LIKE A LOG!..because she swallowed that dog! She swallowed a dog to catch the cat to eat the bird to catch the spider that wiggled and jiggled and tickled inside her. She swallowed the spider to catch the fly. I dunno why she swallowed a fly. Perhaps she'll die. So, I know this old lady who swallowed horse. OF COURSE!...he swallowed a horse! She swallowed the horse to catch the dog to eat the cat to catch the bird to get the spider that wiggled and jiggled and tickled inside her. She swallowed the spider to catch the fly. I dunno why she swallowed a fly. She died.

its a sad day for that old lady. dont swallow flies children.


p.s. my comment link is up now. I dunno how it got there, but it's up there now.

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